Beep! Beep!
The phone...
It doesnt seek attention too often now...
It doesnt often ring.
Thats all it did once...
Evrytime I see it I feel it I realise its presence on me every connection it has ever forged for me comes alive... and it was always a pleasure... I guess it still is more or less...
The first message I received
Connected yet???
None anymore... Gods dont care and Goddesses dont need to. I am damned!!!
But then who isnt???
The Beep continues...
"Hello???"
"Hello Sir..."
The same voice, I heard years ago...
Three to be precise...
" All TR's cleared..."
Silence...
I let out air...
I was speechless... Every word we had ever said every bit we had ever sweat every drop we ever bled every push up we ever pushed every mile we ever ran every dream we ever discussed...
" You Are In..."
I realised my mouth was too dry... He was in...
All disappoinments All tears
Every Insult Every condesendence
Rifles Slammed Feet stamped
Songs lived and Moments etched as lore
Respect
Honour
Courage
OLQ's
HIS SYNONYMS
HE WAS IN...
" Nah, the merit list isn't out yet..."
" Doesn't Matter... You are in... Thank God..."
I said it but didnt believe it... It was all him...
He wanted to be there... He could be anything but he was in...
I had nothing to say...
Salute
YOU HAVE IT IN YOU>>> (I never did never will...)
ALWAYS DID>>>
ALWAYS WILL>>>
+++++++++++++++++++++
VOIDS HAVE MORE MATTER AND SUBSTANCE THAN ALL OF MY EXISTENCE CAN
VOIDS HAVE MORE UTILITY...
-Ponderer
+++++++++++++++++++++++
Everything was just right...
I collected the ball and spun in air dodged the defence in air and shot... And missed!!!
then missed again
And then again
and then Again
and then some more
My shoes are lousy... that hardly ever mattered...
They are bigger than me... HAHA yeah like that can even be an excuse
They have been coached....
Missed again
and again and some more....
Basics Basics... Shoot and miss... Damn it!!!
Since when have I started giving myself excuses???
It never mattered before...
Am I over???
I could communicate once and now I can hardly limp my way in the boundaries...
No Orchestra this... pandemonium has been let lose...
Am I over???
Shot and Yes you guessed it missed...
I must be...
Like hell!!!
UP YOURS... I am over when I decide and till I decide...
IT AIN'T OVER TILL IT'S OVER...
I FALL AND I GET UP...
My forte to get up after a fall and be arrogant and ignore that I am finished...
Pass collected
Dribble
Dodge
Spin another in air
Shoot
And score...
I am back and push me cause I come back harder...
Pain my stimulant!!!
12 comments:
So u finally got the essence...It's not over until you want it to b over...it never will b!!! keep it going...be pushy n u wud jus waid thru like sunshine.....n soon enuf u'll realise u dnt even hv to push nemore...
These words. They make a lot of sense. More than they look to make at the first place.
:)
i remember a guy in my new journalism class say "basketball" when asked to name an object that would describe him the best. "the harder you chuck it, the higher it bounces back" he quipped when asked to explain.
remember the guy? :)
FINALLY, i'm through fighting with u
ps:at the risk of repeating myslef and sounding like a nag(again),
u dont have to be at the border with bullets wizzing past to know if u have it in you.
there can be other avenues.
I don't know much about the past...and you would say this is another statement I'm uttering in absolute ignorance...but you were never over...and you'll always push back...your constant inner struggle is proof of that...the void is your springboard.
We are born to fight and to live!
:) Coolio! You kicked ass on court!!
Everything began and ended at the basketball court! you take the rebound with amazing speed..
Pain is eternal...everyone goes through it...pain is the best healer, nothing pushes you better..
Iam glad you bounced back, iam glad you got back on your feet everytime you fell, stronger this time...
'No Orchestra this, pandemonium has been let lose...' Am i over?
Beautiful lines..
Every person has a role to play, you deserve to be where you are today..you have it in you to be there...
PS: Nice phone..miss it..
SALUTE
@Priya: will try
@Prits: Erm... Gracias
@Montalk: WTF??? Splutter!!!
U r through fighting with me???
Ah
HAHA u kidder...
I don remember any guy like that...
@Prude: I didnt kick any ass... the whole post is about how i missed every shot.
@MT:I dont have a role... that is the glitch
jus like the first day that u said the ball that bounces back... you always have it in you. you alwasys will. it can run it can hide but it cannot escape you... embrace the fact that ure stronger than u think u are and life will seem more beautiful, well atleast clearer than it is with ure clouded judgement about ureself!!!
love you just the way you are!!!
Well after missing 1000's of shots (or to satisfy you shud i make it 2000?), still pushing, playing and getting dat one score is kick ass for me!!
you do and you know it too...like tanu said, your clouded judgement abt yourself...stop living in an illusion ;) I can finally say that to you...
sorry, dont have too much intellectual and emotional stuff to offer, commenting coz i thot u wrote the first part damn well. good job bro.
hum drums was cute like i said earlier u not only write stuff interestingly but u also write interesting stuff!
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